by Korey Mae Johnson
When I decided to write an age play story in March, I felt immediately like I was out of my league. Age play was still very “taboo” for me, which is saying a lot—I work with some pretty naughty stories and I’m all but desensitized to so much of spanking literature. I couldn’t talk about it with people, and I’ve met absolutely tons of people who do age play. Still, the mention of it always turned my ears red and set my heart racing.
I used to go as far as flatly saying I didn’t like it, didn’t agree with the lifestyle, simply because it made me feel so nervous every time I was exposed to it. Now, I did like reading about it—I didn’t like that I felt ashamed about liking it.
I decided to explore it more and write an age play because I wanted to address something that I felt strongly about and wanted to learn more about. I wanted to know why it made me nervous, and excited, and to get to the depths of this blossoming kink. Before writing the book, all I had done was go to a seminar on age play, read a couple of books about the lifestyle, read some others’ age play literature, and then of course, I scoured the internet for everything I could learn. There’s still so much I don’t know, but at the end of the day, I did learn one very important thing:
Age play is broad. There’s no “right” or “wrong”. Some spankos don’t like to be spanked in little form, some like to role play as babies, some as children, some as teenaged schoolgirls. Some like it as a simple stress relief and some like using it in their sex play.
In my first age play story, Being Their Baby, a lot of the focus is using age play as a lifestyle (rather than a scene before sex), and using it in a sexual manner. I was nervous about it—I was sure that I’d get a lot of flak from the people who don’t role play their own scenes in a very sexual way. Luckily, I was pleasantly surprised by my wrongness. I’m beginning to see that a lot of people are really drawn in by the idea of ageplay, and everyone for their own reasons. The age players were so utterly supportive of me on my quest to try out this kink in my own stories and even my own life, to do it at my own pace and to do it in the way that I felt was right for me.
I didn’t think I’d ever play with ageplay in real life, although I was always drawn into age play books. Then, I was heading out of a popular spanking party (Boardwalk Badness Weekend), and I was still going through conversations I had with a couple of my play partners about age play, and grudging how I was too nervous to even get into any deep conversations about the subject with people that enjoy it. Grudgingly, I said to my husband, James, “I don’t think I could ever do age play. I’m horrible at acting like a ‘little’.”
James raised his eyebrow at me and smirked and said, “Honey, the only thing that separates you from a little is that you don’t call me ‘Daddy’.”
I thought about this, stunned. He was right. My husband tends to coddle me. He supports me and tries to always help me improve myself in a positive direction, guiding me like a child. He cuddles me every night, he tucks me in if he can’t go to bed at the same time, he makes me take naps and makes sure I eat right and even makes and goes in with me to all of my doctor’s appointments. He’s always made my happiness and well-being his first priority.
Somehow, that was an icebreaking moment for me. I looked at him, “Uh… Do you want me to call you ‘Daddy’ sometime?” I was dry-mouthed with my own husband. I asked it as if I was teasing him, as if he of course wouldn’t want me actually calling him that.
Again he smirked, “Yeah,” he merely said, and drove out of the parking lot. After that, we sat their quietly in the car. I had no guts to continue on with the conversation.
After that, he started to constantly call me ‘Babygirl’, although he was very patient with me calling him ‘Daddy’. I couldn’t get the word out of my mouth for another six weeks. I became bolder, whinier, but calling him ‘Daddy’ always put a blush to my cheeks. One of the things he delights in now is taking me to public places and forcing me to answer his question with ‘Yes, Daddy’ or ‘No, Daddy’. James loves to see me blush. He loves how extremely submissive and awkward I become when he forces me to go into littledom.
When writing the book, I was definitely aware of the power of the words used in play. Words and titles like ‘Daddy’ or ‘Uncle’ or ‘Mommy/Mama’ really slap someone into a mindset very quickly, at least in my experience. It’s not easy to get used to using those titles with someone, and I feel like it bestows a sort of power onto them, and it was a first step for me. I think that when James treats me as a ‘little’ and I call him ‘Daddy’, the rest of the play actually just happens.
In my age play story, the heroine Sophie is a vanilla girl who is merely exposed to a ménage relationship and then treated by these partners as a little. Slowly but surely, Sophie began to fulfill the role that was cut out for her, and it just happens. Honestly, I wrote that even though I had never felt that sensation myself. I had only hoped that one day that would happen to me—if I was treated enough like a little, then I would finally come into my ‘inner little’.
There’re definitely a lot of people in the age play community that don’t have that problem—they can find their inner little just fine on their own, and come into it very quickly. I was really worrying since writing the book, and during the time I was writing the book, that I was writing about a process that wasn’t realistic and didn’t often happen.
I just went to my first age play party yesterday, and I was reminded that becoming ‘little’ for so many ladies seemed as natural as breathing for them, while I felt like I had to drop into it slowly. My husband/’Daddy’ helped by pulling me onto his lap, kissing my forehead, cuddling and coloring with me in a coloring book. Somehow, with seeing so many littles around me and being so cared for by James made his ‘Daddy’ role finally really strike me, and at the same time, my role was finally just realized. I dropped right into the play and was playing on the rug with Breanna and Nikki Hayse, who were also in attendance, in no time at all. It actually all clicked into place.
I’m going to sum up my rambling about my experiences with age play here:
Age play not something you need to do a certain way. There’re a million directions you can go with it (if you want to experience it), and there’s tons of way to get there. If it’s a fantasy of yours, then how you approach it and play with it is completely up to you. Nobody can tell you how to do it.
Secondly, be patient with people who don’t like age play, or don’t understand it. Like all fetishes, it’s something that people need to chew on for a while. Don’t let people’s objections hold you back, and don’t pay any mind to opinions what might change with the passing of time.
Korey Mae Johnson has written five full-length novels, four novellas (two of which were included in two-book collections with other authors), and two short stories (which were included in anthologies).
She co-owns Stormy Night Publications with her husband, James, and has been publishing spanking eBooks for six years. She”s been writing spanking stories since she could hold a pen and she and James practice DD in their relationship. She currently resides in Albuquerque, NM.